Pressured? It's not supposed to happen.

Meeting someone's expectation is what I wanted to achieve especially when at work. I feel happy for it when I am acknowledged even on simple things that I did.

But, what if I can't meet the deadline?

For two weeks, my outputs were not at best. I chose to feel bad and so work inefficiently because of not doing on time the extra task assigned to me. My thoughts were not in a right tune to make other things done in orderly manner. I felt afraid of what will someone think of me. But these things I acted was not what I have learned. I did the exact opposite of what has been taught to us during personal leadership training.

What I felt was just one of the work pressures. And someone told me recently that pressures can turn coals into diamonds.

First things first. I have to focus on my goal. The things around me, even others impressions should not affect my output. It is in me that pushes me to work on to achieve the goals I set. I always have my choices.

I pray that it will bring out the best in me.

Gratitude

I am still adjusting with the life of being independent, away from my family, and away from the place I was raised. I never thought of living on my own with this half a year time. I have been deciding on my own. whew.. I can't believe what I become right now. I am practicing my professional life as an engineer.

As always, I find it hard to communicate with the people around me. Though I understand the language, I still find it hard to translate what to put into words before I answer. I'm lagging. But, it was never a hindrance for me to befriend others. Thanks to my colleagues who are amicable.

I am thankful to those people who believe in me.

Most of all, thanks be to God who put this experience as part of my life story. I don't know what lies ahead, but I'm sure I am safe in hands.

aeRO gaming

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High Priest, aeRO

This weekend, I feel bored staying in our apartment. I do not have anything to do except browsing the laptop I brought. But the laptop does not have any application or games installed to get rid of my boredom. Consequently, I went to an internet station and search for internet games. Browsing it enabled me to see the online game I played during college, the Ragnarok Online.

RO was one of my favorite internet games back in college. I played it for more than six months that it feels like much an addiction. Most of our vacant periods were spent playing this game with my friends in our first job: Gregg [Archer] (who introduced this game to us), Aevrard [Mage] (continues to play until now) , Leica [Archer & Merchant], and Challin [Thief] (stopped playing because 'fine grit' is hard to find /heh). And I used to be an Acolyte. Those were our salad-days spent playing for another world, the world of Ragnarok. It was really fun playing.

aeRO is an RO game maintained by a foreign country. Here, I don’t have to spend for cards to play the RO game anymore. And so, I made a High Priest character that took me eight hours (sum of my playing hours for two days). A High Priest is a supportive character and that’s what I like most being in a party.

The memories I have of the game ostensibly coming back. And it is worth reminiscing.

Longing

It is back again. I am nostalgic.
How I wish to be back in our place there in Iloilo. I am truly missing my kin, longing to see their faces and to hear their voices. I just want to go home but not now. I have to prove myself first in my workplace. And that will be soon, after three months time. I hope I can do it. Help me Lord.

A Place to Grow

At last, we are now settling in our one-year agreement (for now) apartment here in Villa Apolonia that is situated in close proximity to the town of Dasmarinas, Cavite. Prior to this, we stayed in the Staff House provided by the company for about two months and a half for us employees who came from the province.

We just moved in yesterday. It was a tedious work to move our things once again. And as long as we will be a regular employee (I pray we will be) of the company, we’ll stay here for a year for sure, which means less work to move again.

This is a new environment so I have to adjust with the people around us, especially with our neighbors; and still, language is a matter for adjustment for me. Finally, I am looking forward to find this place better to grow wholly while I am far away from home.